This story is published at Abortion Out Loud.

Sometimes I question my decision. I have thoughts about the twins I never gave birth to.

I was 18 when I found out I was pregnant. It was the weekend. I was at new student orientation getting ready to start my first year of college.

I honestly didn’t think I was pregnant until I realized that I couldn’t remember the last time I had my period. That same day I went back to the hotel I was staying at with my parents and younger brother and secretly took a test in the bathroom.

Of course it came back positive. I shouldn’t have been surprised. I was having unprotected sex with my boyfriend, who I’m still with almost 3 years later.

Anyways, I didn’t tell my parents and I still haven’t. instead I went to my boyfriend’s mom, she and my boyfriend came with me to Planned Parenthood and helped me pay for the abortion.

I had never been so scared in my life, but I knew that I wasn’t at a point where I could take care of one child and especially not twins.

Surgery has always been scary for me, so I took the abortion pill and I don’t know if this is wrong to say but I feel like this made me a stronger person.

I took that pill at home with my parents and siblings downstairs. I stayed in my room all night, alone, waiting for it to be over.

The only company I had was my boyfriend who stayed on the phone with me the whole time.

Sometimes I do question my decision but at the end of the day I know I made the choice that was right for me.

Abortion is a right that every women should be afforded and it’s a right that I’m extremely grateful for.

I looked at every option before I decided an abortion was the way for me to go. I know who I am and what works for me.

~Imani