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I aborted, but although I am not proud, I do not regret it either.

Everything was very painful because they took two days to come and I was bleeding. I feared I was about to die. My partner was far away. I could not even contact him because he had no network where he was, but after that when he returned, I told him and I could cry and everything was better. Now we go for more in our careers and ambitions, and the baby will arrive in many more years.

The doctor told me that if I had them, I could die in childbirth. I wanted to save my partner that pain because he adores me. Also I know that I could not continue with the weight of the babies and the fact that I might die. It was better this way.

The illegality of my abortion affected me in part because when I thought about it carefully, there was no more to decide. Those babies were going to suffer, because to be honest, I never felt a real love for them and my partner was not even aware of it. So if I had any feelings, I learned to suppress them.

I had the abortion six months ago. I was supposed to take care of myself with birth control pills but I did not take them as I should and I got pregnant with twins.

I found out during a periodic checkup, since I suffer from kidney problems. The doctor said it was very risky.

Also, I was only 20 years old and my partner 22. We are in the best time of our lives. We are studying in university, and we had fun as we want.

I felt that the world was coming down on me, maternal feelings arrived. But I became more conscious and I knew that this was not the right way,

I decided that I would not have them despite everything, counting that my family would not even support me, and my boyfriend is still very immature, and our families have other problems.

~ Brenda

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Yo aborte, pero aunque no me siento orgullosa, tampoco me arrepiento.

Todo fue muy doloroso pues tardaron dos dias en venirse y ademas me desangre, estuve a punto de morir mi pareja estaba lejos ni siquiera podia contactarlo porque no tenia red donde estaba, pero despues de eso cuando regreso le conte pude llorar y todo fue mejor para nosotros, ahora vamos por mas en nuestras carreras y ambiciones, el bebe llegara en muchos años mas.

Como comente el medico me dio que si los tenia podria morir en el parto, quise ahorrarle ese dolor a mi pareja pues el me adora y ademas se que no podria con el peso de los bebes y el hecho de que yo muriese. Fue mejor asi.

The illegality me afecto solo en parte porque cuando lo pense detenidamente, ya no hubo mas que decidir, esos bebes iban a sufrir porque siendo sincera jamas senti un amor real por ellos y mi pareja ni enterado estaba, asi que si tuve algun sentimiento aprendi a suprimirlo.

Tiene 6 meses que aborte, se supone que me cuidaba con pildoras pero no las tome como debia ser y quede embarazada de gemelos, mi pareja estaba leos por entonces me entere durante un chequeo periodico, ya que sufro de problemas del riñon, el medico me dijo que era muy riesgoso ademas solo tenia 20 años y mi pareja 22 estamos en la mejor epoca de nuestras vida, estudiamos la universidad y nos divestimos como queremos, senti que el mundo se me venia encima, llegaron los sentimientos maternales, pero me hice mas conciente y supe que eso no era la correcto pues, bien decidi que no los tendria a pesar de todo, contando que mi familia ni siquiera me apoyaria y mi novio esta aun muy inmaduro y nuestras familias pasan por algunos problemas.

~ Brenda