I had my second abortion 368 days after my first.  First surgical, second medical.  Two completely different situations.

My first one - I had just started college.  I also had just broken up with my boyfriend a week before I found out.  He tried to kill himself when I told him I was pregnant.

My second one - We were 17 years apart.  He had 4 kids already.  We were having sex just the way we always were.  It's such a lame excuse but we used the pullout method.  It worked for months. 

We had sex one time in September.  That was when it happened. 

The day I told him, he told me he just found out he had cancer.  I was losing mobility in my legs due to a genetic condition. 

I wanted to keep it but I emotionally, physically, financially could not do it alone.  I thought he would always be there.  We had a 7 year friendship before hand.  Guess I was wrong.

After my first one, I went into a headspace where I really wanted kids. And then the second one happened and I'm not sure what I want anymore. 

I'm fortunate enough I live in Canada and had a mother who supported me.  I have friends who are supportive. 

Because I had my abortion, I was able to have my spinal surgery January 2019 and I'm happy to say I got my strength back in my legs and still have the strength till this day. 

I've made my peace with what I've gone through.  I wish I hadn't had to do it but I know it what was best for me and my life and essentially my children's lives. 

I don't believe any child should be brought into a world where they will experience trauma and I knew not having my abortions would cause my children to experience a life I could not protect them from.

No child deserves to feel unwanted.

~ Anonymous