This story is published at Shout Your Abortion.

I have now had 2 abortions, my second one being last week.

Making the decision was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, but deep down inside I knew it was the right thing.

The father is a narcissist who doesn’t care about me or anyone else apart from himself.

For the past 2 years I have been consistently mentally abused — and physically abused twice.

The sad thing is I love him with all of my heart and so desperately want us to be together.

However, both times after finding out I was pregnant by him, I knew what I needed to do.

He may be a good father when he could be bothered, but a baby deserves a better chance in life.

He wasn’t there for me. I went through it alone, both times. I feel broken inside but I hope one day I will find peace.