This story is published at My Abortion My Life.

I have had 2 abortions, and would like to share how very different these two abortions were.

My first was at age 16. I lost my virginity to this guy when I was 14. We split up and then got back together roughly a year later. We had regular sex and never used contraception. I was stupid and so naive about the consequences.

I still remember the evening I took the pregnancy test, we were in his dad’s flat and my friend came into the bathroom with me. I took the test and left it on the side, laughing with my friend thinking it would come back negative. I picked up the test and it was very clearly positive. I was 16 and just found out I was pregnant, I had my whole life ahead of me.

I knew then an abortion was something I had to do. At 6 weeks and 3 days I had a medical termination and I don’t remember any pain from this, and to this day I still know I made the right decision then, for my both myself and my unborn child.

 My second abortion was at 21. I found out I was pregnant again. I had a wave of emotions and this time the decision was not as easy. I’d always wanted a baby and would’ve loved to have been a mum, again I was silly and didn’t use contraception.

My mum was so unsupportive and in fact, made my life hell as she thought I’d ruin my life by having this baby. I was so confused and really didn’t know what to do. In the end I decided to have an abortion, and every single day since that day I regret it.

I was never 100% sure about the abortion and feel I was influenced into doing it. I had a medical termination and 6 weeks later found out I had retained products of conception and required a surgical procedure. To this day, almost a year later, I still have problems and am still under the care of the OB/GYN.

Forever I will regret that abortion, I was 8 weeks and 6 days. Even nearly a year on I think about that baby every day, I wish I would have been stronger and stuck to what I wanted. But all I can do now is move on with my life. I will miss and regret my baby until the day I die.

 I had two very different experiences; the pain I experienced on my 2nd abortion I will never ever forget. I will never consider an abortion again; I just hope I’ve learnt now and that I will get pregnant when the time is right.

One thing . . . just make sure it’s your decision and your 1000% sure it’s what you want. It’s your life, your body, your choice. Don’t be like me and do something to make others happy. Thank you.

~ Anonymous