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It’s kind of strange. I felt more sure about the second abortion, and yet more guilty. When I took the test I truly thought there was no possible way it would be positive. I felt stupid, and irresponsible and had an overwhelming sense of grief.

My decision was finally made when I thought about what kind of a life the child would have. I could barely support myself financially, and when I have children, I want to be able to give them the world.

I’ve had both a surgical abortion and a medical abortion.

Surgical - I remember they had to give me two anti-anxiety injections because I was crying so hard. It was very difficult and invasive. The antibiotics made me sick.

Medical - This method felt very natural, and would definitely be the process I would recommend... It doesn't seem real to me, I had an injection, took some pills and had an extremely heavy period.

I had a surgical abortion in 2002 when I was 17. I was on the birth control pill at the time, but the hormones were making me vomit occasionally. At 17, I didn't realize that this would make the pill less effective, and wound up pregnant.

My boyfriend and I had been together for almost three years and he wanted me to keep it. I was young and scared and couldn't cope with the embarrassment, let alone the challenges of being such a young mother. My boyfriend and I broke up shortly after the abortion.

In 2009, I was facing another unexpected pregnancy. My period was a week late and I truly thought it was just stress. My boyfriend and I had been EXTREMELY careful, except one night.

I took Plan B within an hour of having unprotected sex. We broke up two weeks after that night, and another two weeks later I found out I was pregnant.

I really struggled with the decision since I had already had an abortion. The women at the clinic were extremely understanding and explained that some women are incredibly fertile and it isn't uncommon for situations like mine.

When I found out about the medical procedure, I decided that it made the most sense for me. I want children one day, but it felt wrong having a child that way. The counselors at the clinic were wonderful and discussed more effective forms of birth control, and recommended an IUD so I would not have to go through another unexpected, unplanned pregnancy.

My friends were incredibly supportive. I chose not to tell my family, because I didn't want them to change the way they looked at me.

~Sam