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Had my first abortion in 2007. At the time I was definitely not ready to be a mother. It was a sad time for me but with time I learned to heal from that experience and forgive myself.

Now in 2020, I’ve had to make the hard choice of terminating my second pregnancy. I never pictured my life to be like this. I didn’t imagine my second pregnancy to be another abortion.

This is harder to deal with, and I feel really upset. I probably could have had this baby and been okay. But I don’t have any family to support me. My boyfriend was not excited or supportive.

I just feel alone. I feel like I’ve lost my privilege to be a mother now. Maybe more time will heal me. I don’t know.