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No one knows my story , not even my family.

I had my son when I was 23 years old when his father walked out of my life.

Have you heard that saying: “ you are what you attract?” I was living the fast life , and here I was a jobless, single mother with no help.

I can honestly sit here and say that I was lucky to have made it, but it was not easy at all.

I ran into someone who I dearly loved in the past , and we started casually dating. I ended up pregnant at 24. How could I possibly let this happen?

After talking to him , he refused to be a father. It didn’t matter how much I knew him, had memories with him, he just refused because he liked how his life was without children. But why did I have to pay for that pain?

Anyway, I didn’t want to be a single mother of 2 kids so I had a surgical abortion.

At the age 25, I felt like I had met the love of my life, until it turned toxic.

I was being ruined with the negativity and abuse after a year. I decided to find a way out, and when I did, I found out I was pregnant.

This was the hardest decision ever because I thought I was in love, but I had to cut the cord there. It wasn’t love. I was afraid, but there was an option out — I had another surgical abortion.

By the time I was 29, I met someone who was “ fit,“ but he revealed many mental issues deep into the relationship.

I refused to go that route again and I fell pregnant yet again.

I went to get the pill. I felt disgusting and disappointed with myself.

Here I am 30, reflecting back. We never really ever forget, it will always be part of us, but we can move on and learn how to love ourselves the way we should and glow into the women we deserve to be.