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I had one abortion in 2021. My boyfriend and I were newly 21 and just figuring out our lives, we were both on the same page and agreed it wouldn’t be fair to us or the child to have it.

We made an honest mistake and I was embarrassed and ashamed, but my boyfriend was always there to tell me I make the choices about my life and my body and this is the best thing for everyone, that there should be no shame.

Fast forward to right now, February 1st 2024, and I thought I had my cycle all figured out.

I studied the fertility awareness method and dedicated so much time to making the right choices and reading my body. I did the BBT as many mornings as possible, I checked my cervix, I took LH tests strips, I did it all.

I tried the pill and my body reacted terribly and I personally prefer the natural way of birth control. I didn’t want any medication preventing my body from doing its natural thing. So I knew what I was in for.

And still here I am sitting on my couch after just taking a pregnancy test or two and finding it positive just a few hours ago. I lost my mind. It was so hard emotionally/mentally for me the first time around and I’m absolutely terrified to do it again, but now I don’t feel so alone.

I am still with the same boyfriend and thank goodness I have him by my side to support my decision again.

I found this wonderful blog that absolutely made me feel seen and heard and understood/validated and supported. I love reading through all of these.

I was so ashamed and embarrassed thinking to myself “how many people have to do this once never mind twice? I feel so dumb I thought I had it all together” but after reading the blogs here, I feel my story will help someone relate and feel understood and supported.

It’s our bodies babe, if we don’t want a child, we deserve and have the right to make that choice. 🩷💜🤍And even though we make this educated choice, we are still allowed to grieve and mourn and navigate all the confusing emotions.