This story is published at My Abortion, My Life.
I am 24 years old and this is my story. I have been pregnant 3 times in my life and had 2 abortions.
I felt very young and dumb when it happened. I had no friends or family or mother and was very lonely. I had had only 1 boyfriend from 16-18 but he was physically abusive so I left him, but straight away went with the one that made it all happen.
I was relieved to be with someone I thought was good to me because he hadn’t hit me. Stupidly not being careful enough and thinking him pulling out would be good enough after about a month of dating, I got pregnant.
I was living out of home and didn't have any money and hadn't even met his parents yet. I was so against abortion before this, but when it happens to you everything changes.
He didn't want it so I made up my mind but felt as if i wasn’t really present. I went through it on my own and didn't tell anyone.
Then 9 months later after keeping it bottled inside and feeling horrible I felt worse than ever. I could have had a baby at this time. It hit me hard. And what does my boyfriend say to me — I wanted to have a baby anyway so lets.
So what happens, I get pregnant again and tell everyone but then he backs out. So I don't want to be a single mum so I have another one.
But then after all this we are still together and I get pregnant again but deep down I know he is not a good person to be having a baby with, but was so hurt by what I'd done that I was craving a baby.
So I had a beautiful little girl but then left him when she was 9-months old because she made me realize I don't want her around this toxic relationship.
She is 3 now and my world, but my god do I have the worse ex in history. I'm stuck to this evil horrible guy now.
—Emma