"I’m not financially ready or have my own place to raise a child."

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I’ve had one abortion when I was 19 at the time, I know for the fact I was young and careless and didn’t have the responsibility to have a child that young. And of course I asked my boyfriend about it. He agreed, so I went with it.

I am now 25 and I had my second one and this one wasn’t easy. I seen how it looked and I thought it was cute, and I thought about it for days and I wasn’t healthy at the time.

I was doing drugs and drinking, so I basically hurt it a lot and I couldn’t live with that if I kept it. So I got it done. It was the hardest decision I made.

I’m not financially ready or have my own place to raise a child, either. I’m still trying to get myself together and go back to school.

I’m having bad mental issues and anxiety thinking about it. I need to learn to forgive myself for it. I feel something missing from me and I know what it is.

The healing process we’ll be long, but once I’m ready I will have a child and not do this again. I pray for those two beautiful angels and I’m sorry for it.