This story is an update to a story submitted to us seven months ago. Click here to read that story first.
UPDATE June 6, 2021:
It's been 7 months 10 days since my second abortion, and it's been nearly 6 years since my first. But I was out walking today with my daughter, just enjoying a nice 72-degree blue sky day, when it dawned on me that I should have given birth to a baby last week.
I have been busy with work and busy with life, not having any real time on thinking about my past, but today it just HIT ME that I should be the mother of two right now.
I found a bench and took a seat and forgot about everything around me and just started asking myself WHAT IF???
To be brutally honest having a second abortion was something I never wanted. I know I would have been a good mother and I know my daughter would have loved having a sister or brother and I know my mom would have enjoyed being a grandmother to yet another child, but at the same time I just wasn't ready. My life was going great, I had my own apartment, I had a nice car, I had a wonderful job, and I had a daughter who I could take care of on my own.
I sat on that bench for maybe 30 minutes just going through the WHAT IF's, and in the end I found myself still extremely grateful that I made the right decision. Abortion was the perfect choice for me, and I am sure I said this before but my life is better because of it.
I can't imagine what my life would have been like if I went through 9 months of pregnancy and having a baby and currently dealing with a crying baby and changing diapers and not getting an ounce of sleep. I can't imagine making my mom taking care of her second grandchild, and I can't imagine not having the money on having my own apartment and instead living with my mom.
My second abortion was still a difficult decision, especially after giving birth to a beautiful daughter, but the consequences of not having that abortion would have been far worse.
I wish these pro-life people could read my story and understand that abortion is a hard decision but can also be a wonderful option. Why make a woman suffer through life because of an unwanted pregnancy? I'm almost 24 years old, and everything about my life would have been different if it wasn't for abortion. I would be the mother of a five-year-old, two-year-old, and a newborn, and I see nothing good about that! I have a ton of childbearing time ahead of me, and i'll have my second baby when I am absolutely ready on having one.
Now with ALL of that said I want to mention something that I am doing on helping others. I am now volunteering with the NorthWest Abortion Access Fund, and I am providing rides to women who need help with accessing abortions.
As you know from my initial story — finding a place for a surgical abortion out where I live is impossible, but as of now I have volunteered my time on driving three women to an abortion clinic so that they could each have an abortion. I am also still in contact with two of these women, and it's been a great help for all of us on openly talking about our abortion experiences.
I want to say thanks again to 2plusabortions.com on giving me the courage on having my second abortion and on giving me the wonderful life that I have now. I hope that I never ever need a third abortion, but it’s a comfort knowing that I will be okay with having another one if needed.
And good luck to all the women on making the choice that is right for YOU. There is nothing wrong with abortion, and there is nothing wrong with having a baby either, but just make sure you make the right choice.