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I was 24 at the time and already had a two-year-old son when I found out I was pregnant with twins.
In the beginning, I had no idea and thought I'd only be terminating one which wasn't an easy thought because I never thought I'd ever have to make this sort of decision.
When I got to my scheduled appointment for an ultrasound, I was told there were twins. I was so overwhelmed and spent weeks trying to figure out how I'd make ends meet if I were to keep them.
Things just weren't adding up because my boyfriend works in a 6 months contract job, and at my job we were told that there could be possible retrenchment.
After weeks of thinking, I resolved to go through with it. It seemed okay, but I grieved about it more than I thought I would.
The bottomline is I know that with everything involved had I chosen to keep them I wouldn't have been able to give them everything.
I probably (out of emotional, physical, mental and financial stress) may have blamed everything I can't do on them, which is unfair, because they deserve better than I could've ever given them.