All in Later Abortion

“Sadly our pregnancy happened at the same time when the pandemic was taking over the world. I vividly remember asking my husband if we should keep it? It was the first time I referred to our pregnancy as an IT, but we both realized that our lives took priority. We finally got an ultrasound completed and we found out that we had twins. That was the end of it for us.” Read more.

“I was a college student. I was unemployed, and it was a lot, to say the least. My partner was an amazing person, but they were in Texas at the time. And here I am sleeping on a mattress, trying to afford, you know, this next semester. It was just no way that I was going to be able to take care of not one but two children, you know? I couldn't even take care of myself.” Listen or read more.

“She pulled up the ultrasound so that we could take a look. Our baby, which had appeared completely normal at our 8-week scan, was actually a very rare form of conjoined twins. They shared one upper body, but there were 4 legs and 2 spines. We were in complete shock. I don’t think either of us knew how to feel in that moment. All I could do was cry.” Read more.

“I proceeded to get an IUD, which made counting much more difficult. I was told it was normal that I wasn’t getting my period. Three months into the pregnancy was when I really began to notice a difference. But afraid to scare my friend, I kept it to myself until I took a test a few weeks later. I was beginning to show, and as scared college students, we couldn’t see another solution.” Read more.

“For the next 24 hours I was ecstatic, then it began to hit me what a struggle it’d be to care for twins and that all the things I had planned to do with my one baby would be difficult if not impossible with two. Over the space of a few days I began to feel very stressed and worried about the pregnancy, birth and raising twins. I felt as if all the joy of pregnancy had been sucked out of me and that there was no light at the end of the tunnel as I didn’t feel capable of raising two babies.” Read more.

“She checked their heartbeats. I cried. She handed me a photo. At first, I didn’t know what I was going to do. I wanted to take it all in. I sat on crinkly paper without pants, alone, waiting for a stranger OBGYN to walk into the door to help me. I sobbed and sobbed. The next few days were a blur. It was all surreal and happening too fast to even process any of it. But I knew one fact for sure — I was making the right choice.” Read more.

“ I put the pills under my tongue. I was nervous because I've never had an abortion that way. The first 10 minutes I had chills and severe diarrhea. My partner was asleep. I got a fever and spent 30 minutes feeling terrible, almost about to tell him what I did. But I didn't tell him, because this could affect me legally. After five hours, the pain began gradually ascending until I went to the bathroom and saw the blood. I saw two balls. I suppose they were twins. So according to people who’ve never been in these situations, I am triple the killer I suppose.” Read more.