All in Twins

“I was on contraception and we were just about financially managing to send our son to nursery and get the bills paid. He was 10 months and an awful sleeper. I love him but he’s hard work! There’s not much help for parents with under 5s in the UK. If I gave up work, we wouldn’t get the bills paid or food on the table. I want the best life for my child..” Read more.

“The man who gifted me these decisions was abusive and manipulative, and there is a 99% guarantee that I currently would be across the Rainbow Bridge if I had chosen to bring those lives into the world. It becomes less painful every minute, every day, month, year — knowing that the love that was created in my womb is now back in the Universe, cycling through the trees, the air–and hopefully–the stars.” Read more.

“Financially speaking, we could not afford three children. Our relationship was on the rocks. Personally, I was so intensely depressed and sick about the entire situation before I learned about the two children waiting in the wings that I could not even fathom one more day of the suffering; learning about the reality of my pregnancy was such an outrageously dangerous shock that I feared for my sanity.” Read more.

“My second abortion was to the same partner, I was 26. I found out I was pregnant with twins. Said partner and I were having a rough time – he’d just started a new job and had a new-found confidence in himself. He was working late and had more friends and commitments and I was just a burden. He decided that I would have an abortion and booked the appointment – he told me after it was arranged.” Read more.

“As I was leaving, I told the nurse I didn’t know if I wanted to tell my mom, who I am extremely close with. The nurse told me that she has a daughter my age ,and that my mom will never stop loving me, even if she was mad at me for being careless with my body. I told my mom a few days later over dinner. She told me about her own experience; she was 22 years old and it was 6 months before her wedding. She said she simply was not ready.” Read more.

“For the next 24 hours I was ecstatic, then it began to hit me what a struggle it’d be to care for twins and that all the things I had planned to do with my one baby would be difficult if not impossible with two. Over the space of a few days I began to feel very stressed and worried about the pregnancy, birth and raising twins. I felt as if all the joy of pregnancy had been sucked out of me and that there was no light at the end of the tunnel as I didn’t feel capable of raising two babies.” Read more.

“I let myself be talked out of my abortion and out of putting my twins up for adoption. I will never forgive myself. Members of a pro-life group sent me tons of messages saying they'd support me financially and emotionally if I went through with my pregnancy, saying they just wanted to be sure I had options. I was extremely depressed and vulnerable and I was living in this haze, and they made me believe having a baby would fix everything.” Read more.

“I had no money to furnish a flat or pay the bills/rent. I thought about when they were older, if I worked, the cost of childcare for two would be horrendous. I thought about how my body would cope. I would be a high-risk pregnancy, I could end up having major problems with my kidneys because of the strain and the fact that I already show signs of protein in my urine. I asked my father for help, but all he could offer was to have a chat. I realized I had to accept that what I was doing was the right thing.” Read more.

“We went for our scan and I was told I was early enough for a medical abortion. However, we also found out I was pregnant with twins. After our scan we left confused and scared. Twins!? The thought excited us but scared us equally. It made our decision much harder. After long discussions we decided to go ahead with the abortion and it was one of the most painful of them all. I still have a scan picture of them both to remember.” Read more.

“Twins in this area are hospital birth only and usually c-section. I also don’t have easy pregnancies and knew to carry twins would be very hard on my body. I tried to make peace with the idea of twins but it just never sat right. My husband told me that he was supportive of whatever I wanted to do. I honestly thought I would never be someone who got an abortion. I waited until the last possible day to do it, hoping one would pass away naturally.” Read more.

“I was shocked at how full the waiting room was. After waiting for over an hour, I was taken to another room and told that I had to take my clothes off and place them into a locker. I then walked to another room where I had to lay down on a table and had an IV into my arm. An ultrasound was taken where they found out that I was six weeks pregnant. I understood that, as I was pregnant with twins. My stomach was so big for being six weeks along.” Read more.

“She checked their heartbeats. I cried. She handed me a photo. At first, I didn’t know what I was going to do. I wanted to take it all in. I sat on crinkly paper without pants, alone, waiting for a stranger OBGYN to walk into the door to help me. I sobbed and sobbed. The next few days were a blur. It was all surreal and happening too fast to even process any of it. But I knew one fact for sure — I was making the right choice.” Read more.