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“I knew I was having my first abortion so I could have children later — to give them a life that I thought maybe they deserved and I needed to give them as a mother. And the same theory goes forward with my abortions after I had children. I knew what kind of life I needed them to have. I knew what kind of horrible life I was secretly in already trying to find a way out of abuse.” Read more and listen to the audio version.

“We were thinking of the complexities for the children and the things they were already navigating. And I thought, I just don’t want to be drawn back into a life of having a baby on my breast, and having to change nappies, and sleepless nights. I am finally in this place where I am rediscovering who I am as a woman and I just can’t get back in that cycle.” Read more and listen to the audio version.

“I understand that this spirit is going back to the light, to spirit world. And I know what I have to do. I know the offerings I have to give, the altar that I have to set up, the ways in which I can continue talking to this spirit. I know that these spirits are always going to walk with me and my family. They are members of this family. That’s it. I am at peace.” Read more and listen to the audio version.

Listen to this episode of the Abortion Diary to hear what it was like to get an abortion before Roe v. Wade legalized the procedure in 1973. Judi M. tells of getting pregnant after a rape at 16 and then going to an apartment for an illegal abortion. Her frightening experience led her into a career in reproductive health. Her descriptions of anti-abortion protesters reveal how little has changed since her 2nd abortion in 1978. Listen.

In this brief segment of her abortion story, Monika shares about meeting two people in the clinic waiting room who calmed her nerves by sharing that they each had experienced more than one abortion. “This was very pleasant for me to be surrounded by these very strong women who trusted their bodies and showed me the normality of abortion. They obviously were way more mature and way more experienced and comfortable in their own bodies, so I was happy to see that as an example to follow.” Read more and listen.

Listen as Bess talks about her four pregnancy experiences — two abortions, one miscarriage and the birth her beloved daughter. She shares about how her experiences led her into a career in women’s healthcare so that she can support other women. “People are not talking about pregnancy, abortion, sexuality, and reproductive health,” she says, and the silence leads to fears and shame. Listen.

"The hardest part of that whole day wasn't the procedure,” says Amanda Palmer, “it was actually the walk from the car to the clinic where I had to walk the gauntlet of angry, rageful, judgmental protestors." Says Alyssa Milano, “I was raised Catholic and was suddenly put in conflict with my faith — a faith I was coming to realize empowered only men to make every single decision of what was allowed and what was not allowed. I had a career and a future and potential.” Listen.

“It’s important to share our stories so that people understand. It’s particularly important for young women who are faced with these choices to feel it’s an OK choice to make. It’s not a selfish choice. It’s a choice you are making for the good of your future, your children’s future and society’s future. “ Click the green title to access the audio.

“After I had my first child I found out I was pregnant when she was six months old. I decided that I could not take on another child when I had an infant. So I decided to have an abortion. The experience in itself was life changing. Then in 2013, the same situation. I just had a baby girl and a couple of months later I found out I was pregnant. The third abortion, we hit some financial strains. It appeared to be twins and I knew I couldn’t have two, there was just no way.”

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“I’ve been pregnant six times in my life. I have three children. I had one miscarriage and I’ve had two abortions. Four of my pregnancies have been unintended and I was using birth control with all of them. I joke with people that I’m very fertile and I tell men now when I’m in a sexual relationship with them that I get pregnant very easily. Like you could walk by me and look at me the wrong way and — poof! — I’m pregnant. And that actually is not that far from the truth.” Listen to the whole podcast episode.