All in Two Abortions

“My previous abortion helped me prepare better this time around, and it was a pleasant experience. I had a fantastic obstetrician supporting my decision. I hired an abortion doula and tasked my husband with caring for our daughter. My daughter was in the room while I had an abortion, playing with my husband and her toys. I was in a tub of warm water, watching Grey’s Anatomy and eating a sandwich through the pain while my doula supported me emotionally and physically.” Read more.

“I have suffered from panic disorder, general anxiety and OCD from a very young age. In my early thirties I was also diagnosed with depression. I’ve used antidepressants since the age of 20. When we started to try to get pregnant, I lowered my dose of antidepressants to a minimum. In retrospect it was a mistake. One evening I was crying on our couch because I was so depressed and anxious about what our future would look like with a baby. I was really struggling to keep my mind even somewhat normal. My boyfriend then said to me: “You know we still have time to decide if we want to terminate the pregnancy. You are more important than anything and you are the light of my life.” Read more.

“I didn't have any trauma, I bought the pills. And I did it. I found out I was pregnant within a few weeks, when I started having symptoms. I was afraid. My partner is younger than me and I had no way out. I have done it before. Previously I did it because I was alone and I was not prepared. This time it was out of fear, because I have a family that depends on me financially speaking.” Read more.

“No tuve ningún trauma, compré las pastillas. Y lo hice. Descubrí que estaba embarazada a las pocas semanas, cuando comencé a tener síntomas. Tenía miedo. Mi pareja es más joven que yo y no tenía salida. Lo he hecho antes. Anteriormente lo hacía porque estaba solo y no estaba preparado. Esta vez fue por miedo, porque tengo una familia que depende de mí económicamente hablando ”. Leer más.

In this brief segment of her abortion story, Monika shares about meeting two people in the clinic waiting room who calmed her nerves by sharing that they each had experienced more than one abortion. “This was very pleasant for me to be surrounded by these very strong women who trusted their bodies and showed me the normality of abortion. They obviously were way more mature and way more experienced and comfortable in their own bodies, so I was happy to see that as an example to follow.” Read more and listen.

Watch and listen as Erin describes how her abortions allowed her to get an education, land her dream job, and thrive in a career of helping others. Her abortions also let her fulfill one of her deepest values as an immigrant. “I feel this it’s my honor but also my duty to build a life where I can give back,” she says.Watch and listen.

“I felt lost and scared. I didn’t want to keep the child, but lived in a country where abortion was illegal. I had already had a very painful and difficult abortion a few years ago, and was afraid of having to go through the same process again. I didn’t want to be a mother. My partner at the time didn’t want to become a father either, and we didn’t plan to have a future together.” Read more.

“That abortion I had absolutely no regret. I had just started a new career and knew I didn’t want to raise a baby alone, nor could I afford it yet. Almost 2 years later in 2020, I have been dating an amazing man. We accidentally got pregnant 4 months into dating. I was excited at first and then got cold feet and talked to him about wanting an abortion. He supported me and my decision and was so loving to me about it.” Read more.